What happened?

Have you ever woke up and wonder what the heck happened to your life? Don’t lie. I believe almost everyone has at least once. If they haven’t then they may be lying to themselves. Or maybe I’m wrong.

Today I sit here in a Starbucks in Phoenix. IT’s one of my favorite places to kill time. And today that’s what I’m doing waiting for a head shrinker appointment. The one in Yuma recommended that I reconnect with the gender specialist in phoenix who I haven’t talked to in almost two years. So on the drive up here I’ve been wondering what we will talk about. I realized that a lot has happened in that time and well I may have to do the cliff notes.

Really how do you condense 2 years in 45 minutes? I have no earthly clue. So I guess I’ll have to see what happens. I hate not being able to see what will happen next. I mean I do pretty well making predictions as long as it’s not me involved. I can see what everyone else should do except me. Kind of like an old friend of mine. However unlike her I do my best to keep my mouth shut and not tell them what to do. So I guess for this visit I will have to just wait and see.

Oh and there are some of my friends that will say that I do things based on the way the wind blows. That I don’t seem to care about plans or what happens next. This is partly true. This doesn’t mean that I can’t see the possible outcomes. I mean you through a ball it will either hit or miss. Step on an animal it cries or you get bit. It’s not that complicated. When you know the basics why not flip a coin. So I go more with what is the worst thing that can happen, approach.

The, whichever way the wind blow approach, has more to do with mood then weather. What does that mean? Well simply put like everyone else I’m not stuck in the one mood for the rest of my life mode. I actually pity anyone who is. This means that if my mood changes I act accordingly. This could mean that I take option B because my attitude will cause option A to explode in a fiery blaze. Or I may cancel altogether. I know the later may make people feel that they were let down, however one must have their priorities straight. If a person is not at their peak because they ignore their own needs they are useless to everyone.

Well off to get my head shrunk.